i’m not sure how much i can discuss behind the scenes.
so as much i love to be honest, and i rather not get banned for leaked dms ( which i’m not going to do ) as i still have more plans just about that, i’ll say this:
i was asked in the past but some or more individuals to be part of this “club”.
i, refused.
there are a couple of issues and reasons.
reason being, because i am active on the forums but not so much on the computer with the actual game / editor due to my job. which as it shifted to a 9 to 5 from my previous part time job, hence, i ( yes. i am texting from work. no, i would not reccomend doing it, but i’m lucky that in my company i have more liberities than not ) so i don’t have much time to spend behind the actual game or editor to test, file bug, be available to all the meetings, join voices chats that they do on a regularly, which ties to the second " issue ".
i’m more of a liability than help.
you can’t have someone like me to associate with the people behind this project.
my temper has become very short fused ( which i apologies. but sometimes it’s necessary ) hence, somewhat of a land mine waiting to explode lol. which i probably burned many bridges with it. and, it’s fine. i don’t mind.
i did however, stated that i was willing to " free lance " whenever possible when needed, and it’s what i did. ( with the cosmetic issues list that i compiled and was “commissioned” to me by one of the helper or cms ) which i also did with some of the fixes and bug reports. and the free quality assets made with the editor.
all through out the forum, bug report, etc you know. the reasons why those existed in the first place ( or at least, i thought so ).
time is also an issue as i couldn’t “profesionally” attend to the various schedules that they have, i much rather offer help and actually do the things on my terms and time. whenever i want, or feel like.
my patience and passion is not enteral.
i am still passionate of enlisted after all. but that few time left, i would spend it behind the editor. which that other can of worms takes alot of time. but i love doing that. if i would apply for alpha test, i wouldn’t have much time for my own mods.
the other “issue” lies in how alpha test members works.
because they don’t primarily deal with only cosmetics ( hell, i think only very few people do ). and understandably they deal with much more. so i would find my self testing other stuff opposed as helping out with cosmetics.
as i stated, my dms are always open.
and i will continue to help whenever possible.
just not as an alpha test member.
which speaking of, am i really the only one who can deal with cosmetics?
none of yall read books, watched movies ( actually, most of them are incorrect with uniforms depictions but whatever ) ?
i don’t think DF really needs to depend on a lunatic like me to fix all of the cosmetics.
even though, it’s somewhat what i found my self doing.
as much as an attention seeker pleasures me being showered with compliments and recognition of my work, i don’t like being in the center of attention. and i hate bringing my self there just to fix very minor and simple issue.
i shouldn’t be the one doing any of the things i do.
i’ll do the because it’s the right thing to do.
but again, am i the only one? should i be the only one?
i say no.
i hope it makes sense.
EDIT.
i presume it does make me an hypocrite because " if you want it fixed, go there and do it ".
which it does look and seems i’m avoiding… but no. i really stand behind my reasons explained.
sorry not sorry.
just an
situation.